I been dreading work since poly starts. I knew damn well things aren't gonna be the same as it was. Everytime 5 strikes, I just hope time would shoot up to ten instead of dragging me long and longer. I'll skip work at every possible opportunity I could get, just so I wouldn't have to be reminded of how different things are.
Like everytime, I almost skipped today. But good thing, I didn't. Hogs breath hasn't lose its' touch in making me feel like I'm loved. Shawn is the best best best manager I could ever get and click with. My colleagues are like oh-my-gosh-nice. EVEN the customers today were so crazily adorable. If this isn't the best job I could stick with, I don't know what is.
& after work, I got to meet babygirl, plus a complimentary meal from nameless. & I'm meeting me clyde tomorrow despite the nagging shawn gave previously. If today wasn't the best day, then I am an ungrateful shits who know nuts about happiness.
I thank God for everything great.
[ I pack my case. I check my face. I look a little bit older. I look a little bit colder; ]
I know I had a point to note when I logged in. But really, what do you want to read? My life is mundane luh can. School's ok; family's ok; friends're ok. I'm ok. & I hope you're ok.
[ this is a proper post ]
I've lunched at seoul garden, so if you have not, can I shout who's the kental now to you? Papers are finally done done done; For now, it's the worst part - waiting for results of how dumb I was. I'm crossing fingers I'd done fairly well. If I had not, mrs & mr witono would be sad which would make sad and which would make everyone sad. So, everyone please don't be sad when Im sad when folks are sad, so I wouldn't be sad when my folks are sad. Ugh, get the drift.
There are millions style sites I could visit! Ask me for it if you want,I'm talking about style from all over the world. & I'm goddamned broke now; I think from now, I'll just leave my dad's card at home and be square to my POSB account. I have to stop spending. But anyhoo, me clyde coming for movie marathon soon. can't wait :)
Moral of the story. Having friends rock, having people who could make you laugh even rocker. & I don't care how unglam this post is, but you have to read this. You just have to. Life is good, song bo * doing my eyebrow. :D
Proper post tomorrow!
You know what I just realised at 11:00 Am on friday, August 22nd ?
I'm scared of being tied down by routines. Hell, it gets me good knowing I have to wake up tomorrow to go to the gym and go to work, & that's it. That's pretty much how I'll live my day. What freaks me out the most is the fact that, what if the day could have gone better, & I missed the point because I'm too caught up with what the world requires me to do.
So, yesterday, I skipped work to enjoy some times with clyde. We watched dark knight, travelled back and forth, went in and out of small shops, shared coke and popcorns. Wasting time, you might say. Having a life, in my dictionary. & Dark knight was the shiznit; cried, laughed and thrilled. But, me clyde made me smile. Life's good.It's friday already, & so far.
It was only one day that I sticked to schedule. * smack head. I have to be more discipline to mark my place in the world. Today's plan is; treadmill and cycle, and work. But today's friday; there'll be leonard. It'll be fun (:
G'morning, sunshine. I been up since three, my stomache was killing me & my constant urge to puke kept me up all dawn. Life goes on though, I'll go to work later. Funny isn't it, last week I skipped work twice consecutively with the reason of not feeling well, & now, it'll be a total bullshit if I were to tell shawn I could not because I'm sick. Ahhh well, people say, becareful of what you say for it might just happen.
Anyway, teenagers tend to be in cliques ( pointing at me- self ). You know what I think? I think it is so because of a reason. I believe someone is meant for another one; hence, if you've not found your soulmate & whatnot, just yet, hang in there comrade, because when you bumped to one, you'll know it right away. Love told me is alright for things not to work out between people, and I can't expect to click with every single one in this whole wide world.
So, if you're dating a guy, and he's clearly not interested in you after a period of flirting that takes like forever, well, get over it. If you're hanging out with a group of friends that are not much of your kind of people, why waste another second. Life is too damned bloody short to be stucked with one bloody ass, and be somebody that you're not.
Okay, so you might think; Why would someone be somebody he's not, how, what and the sort. I'm guessing because you let your ego to have more muscles than your convenient. It's the pressure to be labelled, y'know. Probably because your parents just don't get proud of whatever that is that you do, or maybe because your mind is just too damned bloody blunted to think that popularity & co is all that .
I can't deny the fact that it is tempting. But, what makes me me is the fact that I don't care bloody much. Heck, I go around the school barefooted and alone, and to hell what you might think of it. I know I'm happy with all these I have, why would I trade all that for an impression that I could only get by not being my truly self.
Point is; Live life to the fullest, live it as such that you'll smile yourself to sleep because it happened.
& yes, I'm going to try out for another sports cca, & I don't fucking give a woot of what you might think if I were going to drop it right away. Hey, at least I had the guts to try rock climbing and squash. Did you even have the time ? I guess so. I'm out.
There are 10 billions people; How many of them would you care for? I like gastric, they show me who my homies are. You know I gotcha back like crazy straight (:
[ Glamorous, the flossy flossy ]
Money never is much a problem for me. If you know me enough, I don't treasure the amount of dollar bills I have inside my account. I don't even give a hoot how much bucks I could've spent in 24 hours. I take pleasure in spending my money on living my life. Don't gemme' wrong though, homies. I know where I am standing in this world, & I'm fully aware that I am the lucky ones. There are millions of people who could not even dream having the kind of life I'm living, and would not even dare, I gotcha' sister. But the thing is, this is my life.
If I want to stack a mountain of clothes in my closet and not wear any one of them just because I could, then let me be. Because it's not my fault that I was born as a materialistic with all the cold hard-earned cash transferred for me everytime. Because It's never my fault God loves me much, and give me this kind of life.
What I want you to get straight is; I am grateful for what I have, and yes, this is how I life my life, so deal. If you think that I'm a brat, well Hello world, this is me for you. No one is innocent, not you, definitely not me, not anyone. So, suck it up & be a man. I like living like this. & I thank God for the amount of love He provides me every single day. I need to hit the church already(:
[ What, why'd you that for? ]
“I believe that everything happens for a reason.
People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right,
you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
- Marilyn Monroe
Hello sunshine. Black clouds are gathering right above my head, maybe the rain will come down again like freaking soon. Sunday is such a lazy lazy day; No, like totally is a draggy day when all I want to do is lay on the mattress with love, talking about everything & maybe eventually fall asleep. ahh, love is so comfortable to be with(:
But anyway, I'm going to tie myself down with planned schedule for next week; and would try my very best to stick to it. For now, I'll drown myself in notes, and chill out, and snuggle in my blanket because the weather is crazily cosy.
“I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.” ~ John Burroughs
Laziness disease is back back back; I'm so lazy to type messages, to chat on msn, to do whatever yo'. & my pants are so tight right now, I can hardly breathe in them. But that's okay, because I know at least my baby girlfriends wouldn't even care and love me the way I am still, and at least I know, damn straight I would still love myself. Only person I can depend on, anyway; *grin. I think I need to put restraining order on cotton on because I'm down 24/7 if you'd take me to go shopping there. Oh, probably on people whose muscles are bigger than their brains, too. Because It breaks my heart to see people tearing their muscles apart tryna' do something useful because they can't get real things fine. I feel for you dawg'.
I think I screwed my papers, yet again. OMG, I think I need a slap on the face. rawr. slap me, slap slap slap. HA, that's okay! I swear I'll do much much better next sem. No, this is fo real nizzles'. Take my words and live on it, because when I'm back in the game; You'll know it. For now, I'll lay low. HAHAHAHA. Bimbotic, but ah well.
In life, nothing waits for no one; literally and in expressions. Like the world, it keeps on spinning so recklessly careless, it does not even matter whether you're in it or not. As much as how ironic people could make stupid choices every single day, we still have a choice. Or else, create your own.
I see people walking out of my life for numerous times, & you know how yours truly never bother to keep contacts because her life is so occupied with something more important than sucking up to people who don't even want to be held back. What could be so shocking is how normal the life of the people, who walked out, go on, like as though, I was never there in their lives. But, whatever y'know. I chose not to be all fucked up about this because hey, you lose some, you gain some; That's just how it goes.
Brightest side, I think I deserve Xs and Os, because I'm almost done with my theories of chapt 4 to 6 { have yet to touch, chap 8 and the drawings, but whatev'} & I'm just back from 40 minutes of cycling without having my legs feeling like jelly in the end. Improvement? I said so :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNELOVE!(:
I was crazily low in the morning, even four doughnuts and favourite nescafe original couldn't settle me down just fine. I hugged my blanket and tigerlove so tight, you would have thought I could have torn myself. Prepared for school earlier to get my calculator stickerised, but before that, I managed to stumble to one of my acquintances' journal.
" I started appreciating that very moment of life in itself "
A sentence so strong, the rest of my day was crazy. I was on the way to the train station with music on loud, blasting through the earphone down my ears; It was love song by adam sandler. With thousand words went racing and crossing my mind, I tried looking at the very bright side of the current acute angle of life. I have a group of people who do care about me, besides, since when do I even ever ever care about what people have to say about me and things I do? Unless you're under the love list, well, you might as well go back to where you came from. Sandler was saying he wants to grow old with me when I started taking off the crumpled face I been wearing since yesterday, and put on a face so bright, I'm pretty much sure I outshone the sun.
I smsed everyone with the speed of 5 words per sec, talked with the whole of my heart and soul in every sentences, laughed like there wouldn't be the next hour,walked around the exam room with no slipper on like I'm home and sat for the test like a student. Dressed down like a student with fbt, shirt, bagpack, slipper and lanyard on. Even managed to go home with khid. Simply put? Today was a happy day, thank you.
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I stumbled to another friend of mine's blog. So I smsed mr & mrs witono; I love you, thank you for all the hard work you've done for me. hugs (:
& mrs witono replied;
YES MY DARLING MUM ALWAYS PRAI FOR YOU AND BROT N SIST N ALL GOOD LOVE OUR SORY MUM ENGLIST LITLE2 CAN LAH TUHAN SLL MENYERTAI LUPI DLM SEGALA KEGIATAN AMIEN
and I teared in my smiles a while after.
{ This is love/hate thing }
I've been a tertiary student for 4 months now, and if there are some things that have got to be learnt, they are completely, utterly deviant. For instance, to study. It's worldly different from secondary school, y'know.In poly ; writing notes, never help, studying a month before exams/tests, useless. I just wasted hundreds of bucks on notebooks, files and the sort, only to find out today, they are of no importance to tomorrow's law test, or any other tests in the way for the next 2.5 years. In poly, people don't care about what you do, that I acquired. You can have put on one of your best outfits, that wouldn't make you much of a difference to the person next to you wearing so slobbishly, you would start to wonder if she/he is going to the market or school.
Anyway, the point of this post is that. I have not study for my tests tomorrow, or on any other days. I hope I could just be dead, right now. rahh. No matter now though, I'm going to anisah's place, church and then make my way to serangoon macs with love to study till the next morning. Oh-hoh, I am going to.
I am officially dead; it's 20:00 & I have yet to touch my Law. Thank God they have vending machine that sells nescafe original below, perfectly the best companion for the late-night last-minute studying ( cold, fresh & shoot you straight up ).
However so, today was well-spent with cindy, brother and rifky. Ha you, I , too, have a family outing to snare *smirk. Bought a new red headphone, and binged on huge portion of junkfood which I did not feel guilty at all. It's more like .. heard of social smoker? well, I'm a social eater. Went to the gym & got through 30 minutes in a snap with law book under my nose. I'm proud of how far could I go in pushing myself.
Right now, the only feeling could be derived from the whole incident of my heart being broken is nothing but a bliss. Sure, it feels like I got burnt and there's nothing better than to bury my head into my pillows and let the ache die down after hours of staring at nothing in the dark. But, when you're actually looking at the bigger picture; I have found myself really good friends. Friends who care about how I feel and put words that are hurtful, yet of the truth. All those compared to one guy who doesn't even care a bit about me? no fucking competition.
So, thank you for being more than happy to walk away from my life without even putting me in a position with fault, and did both of us a huge favour. I'll see you around, stranger.
I'm glad we're cool. Though I could probably count words we exchanged for the past 4 months, it'll still break the heart if you have something against me. But, we're good now, man. Solid great (smile)
Lately, I had not been using my common sense to live life. My retail teraphy's to shop & this week alone I already have 3 new tops plus one new bag, My tutorials're all screwed up to the degree that Cs & Ds are my new bestfriends, & many other things that aren't good to be said. All this because of the one living being that does not acknowledge me as a mere acquintance, even, now. Pathetic, isn't it? bites me. & when I finally decided to listen to what the sense has to say, it's all too late. Story of my life, dude. BUT, it's all good and well for things that're trapped in the past shouldn't crawl its way out of it. Sure, there are things in the past that contributes to what present is doing to you, and what future might do. And, that certainly isn't one worthwhile. Eradicated; good riddance.
Perfect morning, my dear. It's going great, already, & hopefully, it'll be for the rest of the day. Though I am guessing it'll be , because brother is arriving at noon, today. God damn it man, this is so exciting.
Finally, I'm done with my tuition grant forms before school started yesterday. Spent almost most of the time yesterday doing my design of study room. Stayed up till the crack of the dawn started to show up yesterday, thinking I could produce a masterpiece with a half-brain and eyelids heavier than my dumbells, & woke up at 8 o'clock to get ready for MOE.
Supposedly, were going to study after school, but the doodlehead obviously having a hard time focusing; his fault. hahaha.T'was fun though, made me feel better after the whole before-CD after-green-tea issue. Though so, I enjoyed drawing the study room, designing and coloring it, despite the fact that my tutorials're all screwed up; always fall in C/D/F line. sucks, but Bright colors always always always make me happy. SP is like making people to pledge about lotsa' stuffs, which is pretty fun. They give out like, lots of goodies. FUN! hahaha. Touch rug sounds fun, I hope wencai would join with me. Totally more man than my current CCA, haha.
Anyway, I'm like super inspired now can. I've always liked how mary-kate and ashley dress ruggardly, yet, it looks fine. Alrighty now, I'm going to choose what to wear; bathe; meet khidhir; meet nyssa love; school; meet brother! OH MAN! I hope today would go fine!
Yes earthlings, I'm still up at this unGodly hours & I am not planning to go back to la-la land, not so soon, at least. Today was fine; in the sense that, the weather was not so suffocating, my brain did not hurt that much Before that, let's waste time;
I want to buy black cardigan, I'm getting my marilyn monroe bag ( like soon, & only for $35 ), I need to find my necklaces, I've stopped wearing make-up to school, I have to tidy up my closet (yet, again), I don't want time to pass by so fast, I can't wait for my birthday, I can't wait to do my hair,I can't wait to go shopping after exams, I'm going to miss dionne for the enxt 2 weeks, I can't wait for anisah's brother's, I can't wait for my own brother & I'm over you <>. G'night (:
[ http://www.flickr.com/photos/29139366@N04/2720122158/in/photostream/ ]
That was taken when I had no make up on, with fbt and slippers on, in foodcourt4. As you see, for the past 3 days, I have not been bothering myself with dressing up & dolling up. Why, you asked? Well, because, no one seems to care about what I do in poly, anyway. Besides, my face is growing pimples all over it because of the makups I've been using. So there, I'm sick of my wardrobe and so in-need for shopping, and I'm tired of getting up earlier in the morning so I'll have enough time to apply products all over my face. When you're hot, you're hot; when you're not, you're just not.
Shit man, I think the whole of next week, I'll be spending a lot of times either in my study room, or serangoon macs. I can't believe how much of a procastranator I am, I can't believe how calm I can get eventhough tests are just a week away. Shit man, this is bad. Like O' level all over again. Man, I miss those times. D'ya believe it's a year ago? I still want people to buy for me mooncakes, though.
Went to class BBQ yesterday. Song bo! The food was worldy good yo'. We had standards like chicken wings, hotdogs, crabmeats, fried rice, marshmellow, satay, corn, stingray, birthday cake for august babies & fruit punch! Darlings and me had durian before the bbq, and sister's sister bought rainbow paddlepop for us! Went home with syafee, and knocked off ocne I got home.My tummy's still so bloated now, I can hardly hunch when I'm sitting down. But, it was good yesterday! extremely (:
